Being Me

2002-04-14T23:18:00.000-07:00

It hit me again. I don't want to give in, but it attacks my senses and takes control of my muscles. So I figure why not revert back to what we used to do as children.
So with God's help:

I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in
I will not be tempted
I will not give in.
I will never ever give up. I won't let temptation beat me anymore. I am determined to succeed, and so I will. It will require God in the very center of my life and so that's where I must focus.

2002-01-29T15:06:00.000-08:00

TODAY

Today has been a much better day. Yesterday I was obsessing on problems and driving myself crazy. Today I've been able to concentrate a little bit better. Not well enough to do my homework or study, but hey when does that ever happen? I'd still appreciate any advice or comments on yesterday's entry though. This morning I woke up early (I have class around 8) and I was so frustrated. This new roomate of mine has totally different hours than me, and that's cool and all but it makes it rather difficult for me to get ready in the morning. Not to mention that it's hard at night too. When I try to go to bed by midnight, she's up banging around til at least 4 am. Oh, did I mention that she's a year younger than me? Not that that's a huge deal...well it wouldnt be if she acted her age, however she acts several years younger. Oh well. She's a really nice person (granted I've only known her for what, one week) anyway, I can tell she's trying. You see I'm like this total neat freak and she knows it and I can see that she is trying really hard to keep her half of the room neat. But I think she's used to having her mommy follow her around cleaning up after her. Hon, you're in college now, it's time for you to learn how to look after yourself. I'm sorry but I dont like cleaning up 3 day old cheese in the microwave because she boiled something over and didnt care to clean it because it's not her microwave. SO FRUSTRATING. ok, I'll move on now. I'm sure y'all are tired of my ranting.

so I'm thinking about going shopping. I want to get "The Calling"'s CD, I'd also like to get another sweater or 2 since it's so freakin cold outside. I guess I'm just not a winter person. I am ready for it to be spring time. I totally miss my friends back home. Since home is a bigger town than this little college place I'm in, there is much more to do there. I miss going for coffee with my buds everyday and I miss hanging out with them. It's so hard to get a hold of anybody too, between my schedule and theirs it's very near impossible. I'll make it though and so will they!

Let's see...how many days til Spring Break? What about summer?

2002-01-28T12:12:00.000-08:00

A tip for the day: learn something new! You can do this in many ways (my suggestion: take a free online course at Barnes and Noble www.bn.com)

2002-01-28T09:50:00.000-08:00

I neglected to mention earlier that you may e-mail me at any time. I would love to hear from you. Whether it's a question for me, a need to vent, or you wish to debate with me on something I've said, It would be great to hear it. Thanks! my e-mail: harleyriderz3@yahoo.com

2002-01-28T09:44:00.000-08:00

So I'm sitting here, much like you, thinking about lots of things. The day's events, possibilities for the future, what to write in this blog, and things of that nature. Then I realize that I'm talking to nobody, and yet somebody. That somebody being you, because I would not be so inconsiderate as to call you a nobody...but now I'm just rambling. Alright, let me start from the beginning. I'm a college student...probably not your average, but a college student nonetheless. Let me explain why I wouldn't be considered average...I actually attend class, study, and do my homework (amazing I know) in addition to that I'm not really into the party scene. I love to socialize and be with my friends, but I have better things to do with my time than to go to some party, get drunk, and throw my life away. I've worked too hard to get where I am to lose it all with a couple parties. You may not agree with me, but that's why this is my blog and not yours. Anyways, that's who I am. I enjoy reading, writing, dancing, swimming, hanging out with friends, and being myself. You might notice that I tend to emphasize the "being myself" part a lot. I think it's really important that we be ourselves. The tricky part is to find out who you are or who you choose to be. I used to put on "masks" and try to fit in with the different groups I was with. How incredibly awful! I mean seriously, if you've ever tried it (which I'm certain you have) it is such a headache. I finally, after many years, realized that if someone(s) doesnt like who I am, they can just deal with it. I am not asking for anyone's approval, they may feel it necessary to give it to me but that's their own problem. I challenge you to give it a chance sometime. Take a day where you don't care about what anyone else thinks of you...trust me it's really hard to do. I have faith in you though, you can do anything you set your mind to. So I guess this is it. I finally finished my very first Blog. Boring as it may be, at least it's done. In the future you'll probably hear me complain or rant and rave or just sit here filling the page with mindless emotions and thoughts, whatever the future brings I hope you enjoy reading this.